A long flare
Wow, so I would say month four has been the worst. The first two months were rough because I was not used to TSW. I wasn't used to life without steroids. I was notably redder. But this month takes the cake! My skin just gets worse by the day. Part of me is glad this is happening, need to get this junk out of my system. But the other part of me is dying inside. Just can't believe I look like this. This morning I woke up with hives on my face! How attractive lol!
Over all I find myself a bit emotionally numb to all this. I want to cry and break down, but it's hard to. I have had short bursts of tears, but I can tell I have a lot of pent up emotion. I am having trouble releasing that. I want to scream, yell, cry. Yet I sit in silence, scratching myself to pieces.
I want to take my eyes off my pain and look to others, encourage others, help others, but the reality of TSW makes it nearly impossible. The insane itch and burn make you nuts. Also all the progress I thought I had made up to this point is dissolving in this long flare, so I am not the most cheery. Hopefully I will turn a corner in month five :)