Month Four Begins!
|The Bumpy Scratchy Arm|
I am entering my fourth month of TSW. So far so good. I have had my hellish days/ weeks. But currently things aren't too bad. This past weekend was awful but my skin calmed down after that. I am noticing my arms are very bumpy and rashy while my hands face and neck are healing. Strange everything doesn't just heal all at once.
One thing I didn't really consider prior to stopping steroids was the effect it would have on my family. On my rough days I can't take care of my kids the way I normally would. The insomnia makes me super exhausted and cranky some days. Its hard on my hubby too because I just don't "feel" good about myself. So how I even relate to him has been different. As I heal things are slowly getting better, the topics of convo aren't always about what I read on Itsan or my withdrawal symptoms for that day.
There have been times the withdrawal has been so bad that I considered taking steroids again because I felt guilty putting my family through this? Anyone else go through that thought?
I felt a bit selfish at times subjecting them to this. I always find mid flare these thoughts run through my mind. When I am out of a flare I am pro- TSW! I hope I can get to the point mid flare I have a good attitude! I guess as the flares become less and less severe I will!
Anyhow so happy to be four months in, I cried when I first learned how long TSW could last. But now I am sort of getting used to the yo-yo progress of my skin. I have adjusted to the bumps and scratch. Really I have learned to become content in my own skin! Never thought I would see the day!
I hope you are all well...atleast we are healing...no matter how bad it gets :)
Have a happy Thursday!